Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The Chastity Cycle

Today is day 7 since my last authorized orgasm. I have been locked in the cage for 4 of those days. Yesterday, I noticed I was aroused the entire day but I couldn't do anything about it. Even as I worked at my job it was all I could think about--just under the surface. I think if I was not caged I would have definitely been relieving myself. So the cage, in this case, is a good thing. I related to my wife last night that I had been horny most of the day and suggested I might be getting to that stage where leaving it locked up for several days might be the best route to take. In other words, no tease/denial until the weekend, at the earliest. Of course, she agreed but also found a way to do a little tease/denial even with the cage on. 

All that being said, I've done some reading about the stages of chastity or the chastity cycle. I'm wondering if yesterday hit the phase described in the "stages of chastity" as chastity nirvana. I don't know but if it is, I like it, even though for me, it was somewhat torturous. But I also noticed my focus/desire was continued service to my wife--doing things around the house, cuddling in bed--things like that.

I'm curious if any of my readers (all 2 of you) have had similar experiences you'd want to share via the comments section or point to your own resources on the subject?

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Weekend of Chastity and Service

My wife gave me one task to complete this weekend and I just finished it! But I didn't let that one task keep me from doing other things around the house this weekend. I took care of the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, tackled the well overdue kitchen counter, cleaned the toilets/baths, and picked up around the house. The whole time I was kept in my chastity device which only added to my submissive feelings/desires to serve my wife. She did release me for a couple sessions of tease/denial which was pure pleasure for her and pure torture for me. I think both session must have lasted a couple hours. But after a while, I lost all track of time. It is amazing the affect giving up control of my orgasms has on me. I've noticed my attention becomes super focused on wife worship & service...and I don't mean worship is the sacrilegious sense. I just enjoy my wife and her body! I also put together another "cheat sheet" for my wife because all this is still fairly new to her and it seems dominance doesn't come naturally. Well, it did early on in our marriage but I was too stupid to notice my own submissive desires then. But, better late than never. It is similar to the cheat sheet located in my post on submissive yearnings from last year. Maybe I will post them here soon. In the meantime, I've also purchased the PDF format of the book, "Worshipping Your Wife," by Mark Redmond, whose blog can be seen here: Worshipping Your Wife Blog. I highly recommend it to any husband or boyfriend with submissive desires yearning to let them out in service to your woman! It is an excellent read and it's not all about sex but it does spend at least one chapter discussing relinquishing control over to her in that department. Well, I better quit writing and get back to serving!

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Back - Sort of...

It's been a long while since my last post--200+ days to be exact.  Well, I've been busy with life and the challenges and curveballs that brings. My wife and I haven't been practicing our wife led marriage -- or "the game" as she calls it. But we did start back last week with a little D/s play in the bedroom, which only served to rekindle and remind me of my deeply hidden submissive desires. And today the chastity device went back on. So now I'm up to 4 days since my last release as you can easily see in the counter on the lower left of this blog. I'm not sure how long it'll be until the next release for me but she'll be having plenty of fun, at least in the bedroom.  Out of the bedroom, life is challenging for both of us with a little one at home and my job and all the challenges that brings. But we will try as we can. She did give me an assignment for the weekend so somewhere between work responsibilities and finding a minute to rest I have to carry out her instructions. I'll let you know how successful I am!